the sheep in ORANGE

Saturday, November 07, 2009,9:46 PM
THE PARASITE

To Whom It May Concern,

Inhuman. Bitch. Wretch. Bastard. Shrewd. Slut. Hypocrite. Heartless. Full of motive. Crafty. Scheming. Nuisance. Flirty. Liar. Eyesore. Parasite.

Is that all? Is that the best you can do? Or did you run out of vocabularies? Do you need my help? Oh I doubt I can be of any help to you cause my command of the English language is not as excellent as yours and after all, I'm a parasite to you, what use can I be of? But and also most importantly, I've passed the age of labeling people with awful names. So not to worry, I won't not call you names like jerk or bastard or son of a bitch. And of course, your mom has did nothing to me so it isn't right for me to insult her. But I can't guarantee that though. I might get overly upset, but I'll try my very best not to call you any unpleasant names.

Oh ya. You said that I'm a bastard right? Sorry to disappoint you. Bastard is mainly used in the context for males and plus my parents got married before having me so I am not an illegitimate child. Therefore, in either definitions, I don't exactly fit into the category of bastards.

Alright, I shan't beat around the bush anymore; I'll just come straight to the point. Who do you think you are to insult me? Plus what authority do you have to call me a piece of trash? I have not do anything untoward you and not even my parents have ever scolded me all these. So who are you? I've kept my silence all this while does not mean that I am guilty-conscious nor does it mean that you can climb over my head and insult me. The sole reason I did not shoot you back aggressively was only because I do not want Jun De, Jing Mei and Hou Teck to be placed in a difficult position. However, since this time you've pushed me over the edge and that my feet ran out of ground, so I just thought that you should not just get away easily nor will I leave any leeway for you.

Alright, you said I'm these, I'm that but can I question you, what have I did that crashes with your interest?

Did I even do anything at all? Oh wells, probably I have amnesia. Kind of depressing huh? I have bipolar disorder too, which I am not even aware of until you mentioned, I am a 2-face slut. I am down with so many illnesses; I guess I won't be living for long. That's cynicism in case if you failed to catch that.

Frankly speaking, I am totally clueless about what triggered your verbal assault against me. Okay, I know what you are thinking now, 'acting innocent.' For god's sake! Am I that dumb to act blur and not do anything about it to let you continuously insult me!? Whatever that you might be thinking, I truly don't know what is going on except for the heartless part.

I was thinking perhaps was due to my absence during the birthday celebration that you labeled me the heartless one. I supposed that should be it la but talking about me being heartless, I don't think you fit to say that. And you very well should know the reason.

You also did not turn up for Jun Zhang's birthday, giving the reason that you need to go elsewhere to another mate's? My big fat ass! I am not sure the exact reason you gave, but that was not what I saw. I saw you, Zhijian and Kim at Suntec City at about 6+pm, walking towards the food court and you were carrying your newly bought DSLR. Uh huh! That explains the evil aura you felt behind you that day ya!? Oh and if I remember correctly, Jun Zhang did went down specially for your birthday celebration! Not that this is any of my business especially when Jun Zhang, he himself did not mind; so who am I to comment? I know my place very well. But since you brought it up, so it will not be nice of me to disrupt the topic ya?

Anyway, back to the topic. If Kim really mean for me and my girlfriend to go for her birthday celebration, she would have called us up halfway into the celebration to check our whereabouts or are we coming. But sadly, not even a single text message and just so I heard, she seemed even happier. In our hearts, you and I both know that she just asked for the sake of asking and so that she won't be viewed as the cold-blooded one. And may I kindly point out that, in the first place, she was the one who made her stand, requesting you guys to make a choice between she and I and that she doesn't want to go out when I am going, in other words, she doesn't want to be anywhere near me. Then now she is inviting me to her party. Isn't it ironic? But you know what is the weird thing that I can't explain? I actually did bring along her invitation with me the day before I went out.

Another point that I need to address is, please do not judge my girlfriends when you do not even know them. You deemed my girlfriend is in the wrong for not driving Kim back home ya? FYI, it is only a 10-15 minutes walk from my girlfriend's place to Kim's place. You might counter saying it is unsafe for a girl at night! Of course I know it is dangerous for a girl to walk alone at night but she has walked back home all the way from my place at 1+am 2am. Though I offered to let her stay over, she insisted on walking back home. And when my parents advised her to take a cab home, she felt that my parents were irritating and just asked me to tell my parents ya she's taking cab. And you should know that my place is so much more further. So what is a 10 - 15 minutes walk compared to that?

Okay, that sounded a little uncompassionate, but oh wells, I don't really care about what your opinion anymore. And and and you aren't present at the scene, you don't even know what happened exactly, so who are you to determine the verdict of my girlfriend?

Plus this is another thing that you are in an inappropriate position to comment. Remember that time when we shared cab home? Instead of sending Kim and I, the girls, home first, you dropped yourself off first instead. But of course I understand since we were already at Kranji, it's only logical to go to your place first else it will cost even more with the midnight charges. So that is not my main concern. The main thing is instead of asking if I've safely reached home, the first thing you asked was the cost of the cab fare. Ha! So much of a gentlemen huh you? It actually kind of surprised me that you felt unjust for Kim. Da Bao Bu Ping? Ha?

Honestly, you are just being blinded. You just think that I am madly in love with you and you are being too afraid that it might be true. Please! If I really do, I will most probably be crazy and in depression now after all you have done. Just like what happened when Zhijian rejected Kim. Will I still be here rebutting you? Com'on.

Face it. Initially, you were using the Kim's excuse to cover up your accusation of me so as to avoid me and to justify what you were doing aren't against your conscience. But right now, you've fell completely into the persona that you have created and you actually think that everything you claimed are real. The technical term for it is ‘Self-Fulfilling Prophecy.’

It just like the time during Jing Mei's birthday, when Nicholas said that Kim is seeking attention in a sarcastic manner. She claimed that all of you guys heard it but did nothing to help her out and got upset and left. But none of you guys actually heard it. It is because she has the mindset that she was being ignored all the time, which is false, therefore she fell into her role of being an isolated person, and believed that you guys are ignoring her so she got upset and left. But in my view, even if you really heard it, you also would have done nothing cause you wouldn’t know how to react. Let’s have another more generalized example, it's like when Jun De always complains that he dreads going back to camp, he's feeling sick. He falls into the role of being a sick person, believing that he is having the fever symptoms and the next moment he is really sick.

You ought to think that I am crapping but you are in denial. You have the trials of negative insistence. By the way, Jun De and Zhijian! No offends huh, I love you two damn a lot. *HUGGIES!*=))

And matter of fact, don't you deny that you were also one of us who thought that Kim was acting weird and you were scared of her. All of a sudden, your attitude just has an overhaul. What a drastic change overnight huh? Ha. The one and only person, in the clique, who truly cared for Kim throughout the whole period wholeheartedly, I in my opinion was only Heong Chee.

You just name me 5 things that I have done untoward you and Kim respectively. I'm not asking for a hundred just merely 5 for each of you. In my memory, I did nothing to offend you so why are you insulting me and tainting my reputation in front of a bunch of strangers? Recalling back, don't you think all along you were the one attacking me and I kept myself I won't say very but rather low? You were the one who started all these nonsense and yet you called me a nuisance? Ha ha. Contradicting.

All the things that you have did, insults, spoiling my name and even blocked me from viewing Facebook photo album, reflects extremely badly, lowly, despicably and cowardly on you.

In my personal opinion, I think the Facebook thing is the most hilarious one. Hello!? How old are you?! You seem to only have the mentality of a 6 years old kid. You know what stories does my Primary 1 tuition kid always tells me? 'I no want to friend this girl! So I am not sharing anything with her!' You are acting in the exact same manner. Grow up la, don’t be so childish.

Oh ya and my tuition kid likes to imitate the sound of a chicken too. COCKLESS-doodle-do! You've got chee bai, no balls. If you dare you should just talk to me face to face instead of hiding behind your computer, ranting some inaccurate nonsense. Hum chee, in layman terms.

I am pretty certain that you are hopping mad right now but you know what? Don't even bother to shoot me back another email/ blog entry/ msn nick/ Facebook status. If you have the guts, come talk to me in person. Bring it on. I'll wait for you, anytime.

For Kim's case, everyone is clear that she just dislikes me being closed to Zhijian and you. So no matter what I do disturbs her. Just because I'm out of the picture, and you are by her side, all of a sudden, she enjoys her learning experience, no more suicidal intention and her world is back in place again. Whoa amazing! You seem like SK II, the miracle water! Ha. Senseless huh?

Right from the very beginning, she should know that she will lose her girlfriends after she has pulled this stunt. Then now saying what friendships are brittle? Ha ha? And trust me, she's the most happy person now that the friendship between you and I turned sour.

Shall we have a bet? Wait till Zhijian and you have got your own partners and have no time to chap her? She will act up again. I am 80% positive about that. And till then, let's see what you are going to do and who will be the next to sacrifice.

As for all the other names that you have called me, I am a little lazy to clear up your allegations la and they don't really bothers me. Of course initially I was infuriated, emotionally disturbed, so you actually did achieved your motive of bring me down, you should be glad, congratulations on that. But after some sorting out of thoughts, I actually think that they were sort of compliments to me. One must possess certain qualities for them to be a scheming, crafty shrewd/ bitch/ slut. One must definitely be of high intelligence and be fierce and feisty for them to be all-in-one. I never knew I have all these qualities! Thanks for having such a high opinion of me.

This entry is getting way too long, it exceeded 2000 words. I should really end off soon. I seriously feel neither of you should waste your effort to reply unless is face-to-face talk. I am getting tired of all these, it seems like never-ending and it’s tremendously time-consuming. I've got a life too, my life don't only revolves around you two and so hence, pardon me for the delay in this reply. So if you both want to end everything, just end it here cause I am also in disbelieve about the existence of people like you two on earth.

To end off this essay, I have got a piece delightful news for you, twit! I'm not going to Hong Kong with you! 'Ha. Even better. I'll be happier for this trip losing this eyesore.' This is your reaction now right?! Your typical immature behavior. Oh the last point, thank you for thinking that I irk you every moment. It's very flattering of you to think about me every single second. Okay since I'm a parasite, you are the lowest living life form. I think I am extremely kind to say that you are a living thing and not an 'it,' while my girlfriends already called the other party an 'it.' So goodbye, bacteria! You suck more than I do! =)

Regards, Your Eyesore